halo halo halo! haha. yeaaa im doing very good i gues.

woke up todae feeling. wel. hmm i was feeling very sleepy actuali. sleepy but deeply content. hahaha. i duno y. its like. everything seemed more beautiful in e world. hahaha. u noe what. i duno why. i think u noe why.

wel. yea. todae..sleepy as i was, i had fun in school. its like evryday tt we sing grreenday's holiday in school. hahahaha. and we're always like 'coming down like an armageddon flame..' den we'l 'HEY!' wid our hands up. we as in hazry weiliang xiangwei n i. hahahahaha. geez.

crazy bastards. anyways. yea. good. fun. haha. and xiangweis always making simple sounds tt crack us all up.

yea anyways. jus figured. i jus realised. tt i am actuali neck deep in projects. haha yes i jus realised. hahaa. but u noe what. im jus gona continue pretending i didnt. hahahaha. cos its fun like dis eh. i'l jus take what comes. u noe.

gota do project? ok, stay back and do. gota study? ok, go back and finish up.

yea. dis is how it shud be u noe? jus haf fun wid wot u doing yea. cos u cant get outta it. u jus do ur best if u can. aldo im not dg my best lar. im jus hvg fun. and tts not v gd. hahahaha. but wot e hell.

minggo's bdae coming up. and i can hardly. hardly at all wait for the exams to get lost and the holidays to come!! ARGH!! SENTOSAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

'wake me up..when september ends..'

hello hello hello again. yes i am back on earth after one night in space last nite. yup.

yea! wel today's been quite alright i guess..more or less. yeaaa. played soccer in sch wid darrel sanjay josh jonathan hazry yiming in the aftn.

geez i duno if it was e sun? or whatever. or jus me. but i was getting reli hot and angry under thr man. ok hot, i noe. its just me man. i've owaes been hot. jhahaha. okok lame. yea but. u noe, angry, is smthg i save for e field man. hell. i duno, cos we went down like 1 goal in the opening mins and i got pissed. i duno, the rest of e players or smthg, they werent motivated or smthg? or it was just me? the only players tt were determined to win reli was like me yiming and josh. we were e only ones running about trying to do smthg. darrel was solid back thr as well, but he looked tired anyway. wasnt reli enthu into running. but yiming did bring some presence into the midfield, and hazry was alright in goal. and when he came out he was quite alright as well.

i cant blame the defence. yea i wun blame the defence. gues thr wasnt enuff cover yea..but attack overall was quite ok. the prob wid defence is we got slow defenders yea..ok. not slow mayb. unfit? yea im sure tt cud be trained up..play more often together laddies!

hell. took another sliding challenge today. does evry1 love seeing me roll ard on e grass?! geez. gues tts wot u get when ur fast and a constant threat. hahahahahaha. okok fine fine fine. humble. and i aint all tt gd anyways. ha!

yea. wel. hung ard after sch wid me ladaye. yea. wel thrs nothing like e times wid you. ok i better leave dis stuff for the birdnest. hahahhaa. geez. or else i'd be having ppl shivering like they got skunked wid some tranquils or smthg. i haf no idea what the hell im saying.

gg off to xinghao's soon. aint been thr for some time yea. ooooooo. jyeah.

the day i nearly died.

was yesterday. yes, it is how i feel. and you know how i feel. im kinda wondering. mayb the brain is working under the heart. and all this while it wuda been just my heart messing ard all e time, making my brain do overtime.

but now lets just hope this yes route goes as far as it can ever go.

any bumps on the road. we'll just run em over. hahaha. wun be easy i noe. but do i care? it wasnt easy handling your intelligence level sometimes. but. haha. i overcame it as wel. hahahahaha. okok fine fine. me me me. it wasnt easy being the dumb one all e time.

heart you.

24.8

hello again. u noe what. i duno why, but im feeling a lil messed up. nah im not reli. im just..u noe. a lil concerned. a lil confused. yea.

wel, i haf no doubts bout whr i wan to go from here. i noe. but rushing it is stupid, i've known that for sometime. and ill stick by it. and i've told you. ready when you are. and no hurry. please.

would it make u happier? yes it would. if you're at ur happiest now, den no, it wun't make u happier. cos nth's gona change. but since nth's gona change den y go on u ask? thr are smthgs tt wud change. but they aint gona screw anything up. argh i haf no idea what e hell im saying. ima go write in my paper diary. heh. do i even haf one. argfghguiewRKNOIDFNnlfnjbnDFNk.

yes. we'l stay. yes yes yes. i love it like that.

and i wished tt all msn nicks wud just be 1, 2, 3, 4..nth else. or at least haf a 7 letter limit. haha. cos. hell. i duno. theyre kinda scaring me. i meant e nicks. argh. i hate english. i hate my brain. overworking all e time. hahahaha. its fun though. u noe. shows u got a brain at least.

all i wana be is be worth the choice u make. yea. even if it is a kind of risk ur taking go move on, i wana be worth that risk, and turn that risk to a certainty tt thr is sm1 out thr who wud be the one. argh hell.




ok. confusing emo time over. yup. back to earth. yea. im doing ok i gues, more or less pretty good. played soccer wid the irvo n mingo. me laaddies. yea..at sengkang wid zainal n frens. played orite i gues. i duno. hardly played though.cos thr were like 5, 6 teams..rotated..but i gues we played ok. e court down thr was pretty big too, more space. heh. cant stand playing in smaller courts. requires more technique, n i aint thr yet. hell. close u down so fast. ha.

yuup. couldnt stop thinking of u e whole day. yea. i love u alex. hahahahahahaha.

NOO!!! you as in you. u noe, e one reading dis. hahahaha. its not stil alex is it. argh. hahaha yea u noe who u are.

i stil loove u alex. we shud go hang ard soemtime. and we shud go 'ahem' at the door openers at the grand hyatt. heh heh heh hehhh! GRANSAZERS SAVE THE DAY!

hello hello again. hows it hanging. ok crap i shud stop that. its getting irritating.

wel. yea i've been well. yea like. well. as in. good well. u noe. i duno.

school is getting hectic man. basically cos of the numerous projects piling up. got SDFTV..OM...DMA (wich is due tmr. and we're stil working out our crap. cant even confirm wot to do man. die! WOO!) and many more i cant rembr. anymore? i think so. sure got. ooh. ya. FW. MMR oso sure got. lemme think. hmm. argh i cant think. i hate thinking. hahahaha.

yea. and u noe what i reli cant stand? i cant stand lil pieces of sheep that take their stress out on every1. i noe. ur stressed. we're all stressed godammit. but tt doesnt gif u a ^$%#&@ reason to take it out on me like tt. all i did was jus call ur name like i'd call to any1 in the name of fun to clarify when we're doing a project.

and she fffffing ffffff me upped or up or arrgh!!!!! by asking "WHAT!? WHATS UR PROBLEM!?'

dude. lighten up for real man. its jus projects. we're all stressed. come on. whats ur prob man!? geez. i hate working with ppl like that. i HATE it. I HATE DIS KINDA PEOPLE. wots e pt of studying so much n stressing urself up when ppl actuali study less than u and get higher marks? 2 types of students, i've said before. u fall into one category of them, and im not gona say which. u noe.

argh. geez. ppl like that. sigh. man. im not saying i aint serious bout it. i am. but i dun show im serious by having stupid mood swings like dis n takin it out on ppl. relax lar! haiyo.

and i cant stand them bootlicking asses who 'heh heh heh.' 'hahahaha' at every stupid joke the teacher says. hey. ur the only one laffing in class. hello? hello!? *snaps fingers* (ok i cant.some1 help me?) yea. and u noe what. u tok alot in class. but u noe what? its a whole lota crap. i see ppl like bengs who dont speak as much, but haf more substance in what they say man. airbag. heh.

and u say i've changed eh? wel u noe what? i dun care. ppl change. how do u wan me to stay the same as always? y dun u freakin work out ur own personal problems wid ur once-close frens instead of telling me things i dun nid to hear?

'u noe zhi yang, ur reli becoming a dick man.'

what e hell did i do!? i din do nothing. thr are things i wuda done back when i was ur 'old' zhiyang tt i stil wuda done now. changed? what e hell.

just cos i widened my social circle in class to include ppl u ppl deem undesirable to be frens with doesnt mean i've changed for the worst. come on. tts stupid. i dun haf to be like them. attitude!? WHAT ATTITUDE!? geez! i still joke ard like be4. i stil screw ard. i sitl haf so much fun. n im not gona change tt jus cos u ppl think 'ooohh ur a dick now..' and 'ooohhh u got some attitude ting gg on now.'

yea. now i got it all outa my system. u noe. thr are ppl in school tt u wud wana keep contact wid when ur outa sch, my bros and evry1..and thr are ppl u jus work with for e sake of working with. and in e end u jus dun wana c em again. e ppl i've jus mentioned (i kinda hope u read dis)..are in the latter.

sigh. im sorry. u noe. i jus hate ppl like dis. sorry if i came across a lil nasty.



PS. NO ITS NOT ABOUT YOU. as in YOU. the winged feathered one. i mean. of cos its not. i jus. u noe. jus to be safe. hahaha. c u at the nest.

missing you. miss chinning ur nose so badly i wana do it to sm1 else.

cant do it to my mom. she'l think i wan smthg from her.

cant do it to my bro. he'l think im gay.

cant do it to my dad, he'l do it back to me. eewww.

hi. u noe what. im somewhat stressed.

i noe i noe..tt doesnt sound like me yea. i noe. but iM OKAY AS ALWAYS! i duno. i kinda feel i aint taking life serious enuff. but. i duno. why should i? i wana just enjoy myself like this. i reli do. the sad thing bout life is that to enjoy urself u have to eat, u have to sleep, u have to live, u have to work. u NEED MONEY. tts the shitty ting bout life. u cant just live free. u cant just. i duno. even vagabonds n beggars out thr haf to work. they gota sit thr n beg and haf tt pitiful face. the whole day. vagabonds go about wid supermart carts and they gota do collecting n stuff. and they sleep in drains n stuff.

i duno. im not sayin i wana end up like this. but what if i did? hahaha. tt'l be lame. but mayb i cud revolutionise the whole new vagabond look. mwahaha. turn it into a fashion. 'BE A VAGABOND TODAY!' or smthg. den i'l be a famous vagabond. hahahaha. tt sick. im getting sleepy.

but anyways. yea. money is so impt in life. widout it u cant live at all. it even touches love. i duno. widout money, how u gona support any1? even if the gal tells you 'im not wid u for the money' but what e hell. u expect her to slp wid u in e drain? i duno. if thr reli is this kinda true love den i wudnt mind being a vagabond with tt someone. we cud go shoppingmart cart stealing together and feed the pigeons. hahaha. i duno. tts stupid.

yea. i haf yet to get my new contact lens. cos im at my last pair. and im running out. and im losing out. haha. but what e hell. y dun i seem to care.

school? yea im not saying i reli slack. as jeremy said once. i noe when to study. u noe. thr are 2 kinds of students. the smart lazy ones. and the stupid hardworking ones. the stupid hardworking ones work their asses off every day of their life, and no doubt, theyre successful most of the time. but tts not life is it? how do they enjoy themselves?

i duno. i might seem to fun-minded. but i live to that. i duno. everyday shud be fun to me. hahahaa. if i dun laff one day ill just die.

yea. think of the future my mom told me. my future? i wana be a radio dj wid my very own station(no not indian. please.) but if i dun work for tt wil i be thr? yea. true. i gota start brushing up on my general knowledge and other stuff. and study hard.

i somtimes think i might be in e wrong course. i sometimes tink what happens if i dun make it as a dj? wot e hell wud i do. i dun haf a backup plan. i sometimes think. u noe. i dun even noe what to do after poly. i heard smwhr at 21 things jus fall into place n u seem to noe what u wan. i hope tts e way it is. tts 3 more yrs of enjoying myself. hahaha. NO it aint. i have e rest of my life to do that.

im not gona live my life saying 'i cud haf done tt' or 'i didnt do that' be4 i die. no. i dun. i jus live the moment. this is my life. n im enjoying it. hahahaha.


ok. now back to OM.


hahahahha.

halo! hows it hanging!? eh crap i did that again. anyways. yea. wel.

ok. IM HAPPY! tts wots most impt. ok nothing more tts all.

yeap. yea went to sch as usual todae. got gay wid sanjay n jem the whole day. don u jus love em. hahaha. ok i didnt say anything. yeap. well actuali i was feeling a lil crammed up. no i didnt haf constipation. im a healthy parrot. i eat fruits n nuts everyday. i eat myself to sleep with raisins. reli. so reli, business is smooth. hahahaha. get it. smoooth business. ok lame. sorry.

yea. jus a lil emotionaly strained tts all. but EVERYTHING"S CLEARED UP. and all i can do now is just hope. n hope. n hope. n hope. tts what i've been doing my whole life. hoping for tt special someone. yea. ok, mushy time up. *DEH!!!!*

aarrgghh. u noe. ima give a toilet guide for guys here. hahahaa. ok.

• T22 level 1 toilet - near the canteen. one seater and 3 squaters. usually toilet paper is wet. and its pretty smelly. not shit smelly. its..food smelly. ok don ask how.
• T22 Level 2 - not sure.
• Level 3 - same as level 1. jus a lil higher up. toilet paper quality is good. but the toilet paper is outside. so u gota like roll urself up like a mommy in toilet paper and go in.
• level 4 - ah dis one's good. 2 seaters and 2 squatters. good for business partners. hahahahha. toilet paper inside somemore. the best of the lot.
• Level 5 and 6 - both same as level 1. i think. yea. but toilet paper is outside oso.

hahaha. i haf no idea why i did that. maybe its cos i was reading a blog be4 dis. bout the hardships of finding toilet papeer in sp. yea quite true. haha. but. tts only for the females. e guys get it all. hahahaha. mayb its cos we're more. how do i say. thrifty.hahaha. okok. fine fine. im not gona gif a bio lesson now to lil kids bout the differences bout guys n gals. (aldo guys are generally smarter. and taller. hahahahaha)

ok stop it. i haf a few ppl now ramming their heads against the monitor trying to get to me. lighten up dude.

and i was coming home on e bus from queensway. and i heard dis reli funny conversation btwn 2 jc guys. hahahaha. they were tokin bout arabs.

guy 1: theyre a few arabs in our sch rite?

guy 2: yea a few around.

guy1: how are this arabs actually? are they like from egypt and all that?

guy 2: no lar..some of them reli from arabia.

guy 1: in arabia isit like got all the camels and deserts and stuff..?

guy 2: no lar theyre quite advanced what..why u say them until..

(here i was snigeering to myself. but not too obviously. i was right in front of them)

guy 1: oh..they got roads everything rite thr..

guy 2: yea got roads everything..

guy1: then they got like horses and camels and all that on their roads or what?

guy2: no lar cars man.

hahahahhaa. the funniest part is thhe guy 1 was really toking seriously. he was reli earnestly asking dis questions and he reli didnt nOE! HAHAHAH!!! tts so..SO STUPID! hahahahaa. but eh. actuali ah. i did share guy1's thoughts though. ok. no im not stupid. at least i didnt announce it to thoe whole world so some idiot can go write it on his blog for other arabs to see. the other ting is dese 2 were JC STUDENTS! hahaha they looked all smart and everything. hahahaha. man.

funny guys. u wudnt wana hear what thye were saying bout wedding crashers.

ok..i'm currently experiencing a clone escape, so if any of my clones start saying things bout me that is not true in some posts in this blog. DO NOT believe them.

i miss my mum
and i think i am gay, cause i simply cannot get him out of my head.

sorry. i duno why im just sorry. im just back here to say.

i won't be affected. do i sound like im reli scared tt somone else is saying tings about me and trying to turn me into some delinquent teen with a bad family background and smoking 10 packs a day with a drug business and runs a black market and u noe, with many kids i din noe about. IM NOT ANY OF THAT! (i think.)

yea. its not like im afraid she'l say tings like 'he killed his cat' or 'he does drugs' or..'hes flippantly playing u ard'. im not scared of tt. cos i haf nth to hide! i haf done none of those. and i . u noe. i just hope u believe what u think.

yea ur strong i noe. im sorry. im not.

yeap. the topic says it all. that's all. thanks. bye.





hahahaha. ok no im jus kidding. wel. yea wel. nothing. haha. dis is dangerous u noe. writing on e internet. ima start a diary book. one i can lock in my drawer. and i can SAY ALL THE TINGS I WANT! MWAHAHAH!!. yea..its hard to express my true feelings out here.

yea wel. today was gd as well. just another day out. ok, aldo i've mayb said dis. i cant help but feel dis is boring. ok its not for me. everyday's special for me in your presence. damn i sound so shakespeare with white specs now. hahaha. geeziz. ok ill stop it. ill just. u noe. argh hell.

ok. tts all for todae. im gona go slit my wrist now.

alo again people. how all of u been eh? been some time eh. no its only been a day. yup. ur smart now. ahaha. gee i cant type properly. mayb its cos i been doin too much pull-ups. jus installed e bar at my com room doorway. oooohh soooo...soo...sooo..k nvm

anyways. yeap. its been a very. very boring day. i kinda wonder now. back in sec sch when i had to stay at hm during wkends and holidays. HOW THE HELL did i survive back den? wot did i do? i dun rembr studying. ok yes i did. but not the whole day! who e hell studies e whole day?
ok maybe some ppl do. but those guys. geez. those guys are like. 17yr old presidents man. heh heh heh.

argh. so boring. went to gran's place to kick balls 2 times todae. once in e morning. den in e aftn. wid xh. waaahh soo tiring man. ima die soon. mayb tts how those dead soccer guys died. playing too many times a day. and my right foot kinda hurts. earrggh..

oooooh. yea. and i think today's entry doesnt have any confusing parts. aldo i wud reli appreciate if some feathered ones educate me as to whr their blogs are. so i can conduct routine checks. ok 4get it. nvm.

oh. some pesky birdie just called. hahahahaha.

news just came in from irvo that sparks passed away.

aw hell...im not crying now..YET..but hell..i had this..geez. this sudden overwhelming wave of sadness and helplessness that came over me.


I NEED TO RUN. - yango! says:
dude..hows he doing?

i will miss you. says:
gone

yea..well..geez..nth much i can say..yea. sparks been a reli fantastic dog. i mean. yea s irv said. he was different. he was a family ting. i aint part of tt family, but i saw how he sometimes brought them together sometimes. i even had fun with him when i spent nites thr. how he sniffed my toes in e morning. how he ran away from the ball. arrggh crap. hell. i feel so sorry man.

condolenses to irvin and his family. rest in peace spark.

='(

alo. hows it hanging eh. ok i've been doing tt ard sch and i've been getting all sorts of answers so lets not go thr. ('a little to the left' eh)

yea anyways. yea im doing ok. i think. haha. sorry obut e prev post yea? a lil mind boggling. but u'l get used to it. hahahaha. yea. oh wel. i've said all tt before so i aint expecting anything much i gues. argh tok is nothing man. talk is cheap. talk is sheep man. actions count. i'l do what i must.

oh. my gran's cat jus gave birth to 2 lil identical black n white kitties. aawww soo cute. i feel like SQUEEZZING THEM...SOOOO....SOOO MMUUUCCCH...ARRGGH..oh. whys thr blood. hahahaha. NO! i don't do that. come on. i'm such a nice guy. im so gentle. i dun kill people. hahahaha. JYEAH! *crammed face*

ok. back to earth. argh went to sch todae. yea was more or less alright. yup.

'that special thing you have found'

aie. well..i duno man. no dun get me wrong yea. nothing's wrong. i'll just sit back and wait. things will remain dis way. and hopefully turn for the better in time to come. time heals. time does. im sure it does. past experiences? hurt before? nah i duno. i said it be4 ill say it again. im not gona be like any other guy and say things like im different, i wun be like them. all i wana do is just show that to you. and thats not gona be easy, but do i care? no i dun. all that matters.

i understand why things are like this. i reli do. i reli noe why thrs all that trying to be hush hush and trying to keep it down. you've said before it doesnt reli matter. yea, i noe it doesnt..its just that things arent confirmed, tts y its like dis maybe. or mayb its just the starting stages. i wudnt noe. i just hope that as time goes on with me..wel, as before, that fear would fade for you. yup. happily. take ur time yea. the world won't wait but i as hell will.

aaand. wel mushy stuff. all i want to do. yes. just to see you smile. i duno. i cant help but feel that i sound manipulative and all i reli want is just to have someone to show off, someone to say 'hey, shes with me'. argh i just can help but feel someone thinks i'm like dis. and jus saying im not aint gona help. again. actions will show. ill show im nnot like that. how cud i be like that? i've never done dis before. i duno whats gona happen next. i dun haf experience. i believe in love. hell. yea.

and no, i am NOT affected by what people say. as 'upset' i may seem to be..well. im not really. yea like before (again)..its not what ppl think that matters. all that matters is what YOU think. so. aldo i reli cant understand what some ppl say about me when they hardly even noe me. geeziz. ok tts not the point. ppl can say what they wan, what they think. im sure ppl have perceptions. yea. thats their problem. argh. ok.

yea tts bout it for the sick confusing stuff. now back down to earth. now all that up thr. contact my agent. hahaha. yea. ppl who noe noe. ppl who dun. duno. hahahaha. ok lame. anyways. sorry for all that mushiness. had to say wots on my mind.

irv's dog's dying. spark. aw crap. i cudnt help waking up dis morning wid that sick sad feeling. i mean, yea, he aint my dog. but..i've gone to irv's place so many times..and its the dog tt llights up the family reli. i duno hows it gona be widout spark. kidney failure irv said the vet said. oh well..ppl come ppl go yea. all that matters is how u go on widout them, and whether u cherished them when they were ard. hahaha.


oh man wots wid me todae!? im getting all 'confucius say..' hahaha.

all i noe is confucius say 'men wid hands in their pockets will always be on the ball.'

hahahahahaha. ok tts that. thanks for coming todaey. hahaha. pls reli. dun mind the upstairs stuff. its comin from my heart yes. (aw not again)