aaaha. helloe me laddies. as u can see. i have been going tru emo roller coaster rides. and NO, they are not fun.

jus a few days ago i cried for my bro, in front of my dearie. yea, as much as i wud want her to console me, i also didnt want to burden her wid all tt crap. seeing your loved one start crying suddenly in front of u is reli reli reli..erm. tear-inciting. saddening. its hard for the other party to console you. in a very diff position. but the perfect one, her, took it all in her stride. and wel. thanks for everything dear.

yea wel. just now i was at my gran's place, and i went into her bedroom to cool off at a standfan (cos i had jus practiced balls in my garden, no as in soccer, u sicko) so i was stil sweating even after showering. so i was cooling off and i looked ard the room.

the grainy walls.
the colorful mosaic green tiled floor.
the broken toilet door i once slammed into my cousin's nose.
the bed where i used to slp over with with my brother and cousins, now occupied by my lonely granny.
the partitionised ceiling i looked up to when i lay on mattresses at my gran's place when young.

tt was whr i had spent so many yrs of my childhood.

all im saying is. its amazing how so many things remain unchanged even as you go about ur daily life and things change so rapidly around you.

little things like dis, like an overpowering love for a special someone, like memories you have before, like the people you meet who make an impact in ur life. these are e things tt dun change.