sitting there at my lonely bus stop waiting for the damn bus to arrive. i suddenly dawned upon something in my life.

change. i've changed. yes i have.

but no, its okay. changes are good. but sometimes..changes might make you forget somethings.

frankly. my family is forgotten. every night, or sometimes i just think to myself. am i really neglecting my ma cos she treats me like this, or is she treating me like this cos i neglect her? she's the only one at home rite now, and everythings on her. burdens like cleaning the hosue and everything.

but e sucky thing is. everytime i think bout that, and i come home hoping to do smthg bout it, she scolds me for every single little thing. like take for example last week, she scolded me for using the livingroom fan at speed 5. well. i dunno if she had a legitimate reason for doing that..but. it made me stop for a while bout pitying her and deciding to go out the whole day the enxt day.

and all this is not helping with my financial crises. yea.

speking bout money. i spent the whole of last nite thinking bout my financial situation, thinking bout how i wasn't earning enough money to enjoy and have fun with my very special person(well, one wudnt say my proj grp was the most relaxed in the world. work is like an aphrodisiac to them) i kept worying bout that, worrying and worrying.

but just now. as i sat there thinking bout it. it just dawned on me that, as a student rite now. money isnt really the most impt thing. it really is my proj work. i kept thinking bout how i cud make more money, how i cud maybe get another job that pays better and earn more, working everyday to chalk up my bank.

yea..i wudnt say its not impt. it IS 'freaking naive' to think money doesn't matter. to every guy, money is everything. but if i continue thinking bout how to earn more money to splurge for now..its very short term thinking man. seriously. short term thinking has always been a big problem for me. i always think bout how i can enjoy myself now without thinking bout my long term benefits by sacrificing some things for now.

its true, moneys impt. but not for a student for now. so i shud say, im gona stop splurging and spending so much on things like snacks i eat in school i don't even really need. and also my phone bill which gets higher every month. i shud get money not be working my ass off, but saving money that i dont need to spend!

now thats a thought aint it. haha. well.


seeing as how i've been so very intellectual in my post after an absence of so long. erm. i shall now indulge in some blabbery unintelligent talk.

portugal rocks and sp sucks. projects suck. i hate projects.

this would be because i completely understand if u guys are on the verge of switching to another website, or sms-ing me 'eh, u changed your blog add again ah?' but i can assure u i am stil the same crazy bastard who pollutes this blog with lotsa crap all the time.

i just have alot on my mind, and my blog is the place to..erm. get it all off on. as suggestive as that sounds. its..innocent.

til then, its yango, married and happy..siiiiiiiigning off!

PS. i hate fernando torres simply because he is cuter than me. but im sure i can love OWL way way way way better than him. hahahahaa. he doesnt even speak ENGLEES!!